tOgether yet fOrever apart

June 5th, 2007 by dice-cied

WE are here between

solitude and stillness…

embracing the bliss

and the pain

of this stolen rendezvous.

those eyes…

twilight and mists.

numbness and care.

lust and love…

piercing through my bare fragility…

enveloped in YOUR presence,

i am careful yet careless

and carefree…

strong yet weak.

a woman and yet a girl.

and this is all i want to be…

loving and losing…

loving again —

and losing still.

i am a heartache on the run.

running

into YOUR realm

of uncertainty…

of love…

of brokenness…

YOUR hands…

stripping me off

my sanity.

sending me — YOU and ME

into oblivion.

blinding…

desiring…

aching…

the hands of time

slowly and excruciatingly

tears this beautiful madness,

as every tick-tock

brings us back

to what we really used to be,

moments before…

i had YOU,

YOU had me,

WE had US…

but then again, NOT REALLY…

and all these

will be folded in the autumns leaves

of memory…

neVeR faLL fOr a FRIEND

January 6th, 2007 by dice-cied

when you fall for a friend…

never kiss when you’re not committed…

do not nurse the feeling…

for it will lead you hanging in mid- air…

never expect for that person to feel the same way…

‘coz it will lead you to false hopes…

never fall for a friend… for you will end up getting hurt…

over…

and over…

over…

again…

==just like me….

whY LeAve..?

November 7th, 2006 by dice-cied

yOu leFt mE withOut leaVinG any trAiL of reasOn..

nOt eveN a simPLe GOODBYE..

yOu stePpeD oUt anD sLamMed thE damN dOor..

anD diDn’t evEn gaVe me yOur laSt gLanCe..

dOes it haVe tO enD thiS waY..?

i knOw i hAvE my imPerfeCtiOns and inCapabiLitieS..

bUt whY infLiCt me witH sUch paiN..?

whY maDe mE waiT fOr nOthinG..?

whY leaVe me wiTh eniGmaS..?

whY dO aLL theSe aLL of a sudDen..?

buT i guesS thE bOttOm liNe qUestiOn is..

WHY LEAVE..?

swEet nOthinGs..??or liFe’s simpLe pLeasuRes..?

November 7th, 2006 by dice-cied

a sOft brEezE… a breAth-taKinG sunRise… quieT mOmenTs… thE rusTLe of leAveS.. wiLd fLoweRs… rainbOws… friEnDs… famiLy… loVe…

anD of cOurse… GOD.

miSSinG a “beLOveD idiOt…”

November 2nd, 2006 by dice-cied
  • eveR haD dat feeLinG of miSSinG sOmeOne sOoOo baD it juz makEs u cRy..??
  • and yOu knOw it juZ dOesn’T seem fit…
  • jUz thinkin’ oF thiS damneD persOn knOwinG aLL u caN dO is reminisce thOse timEs yOu’ve haD witH HIM ,,,
  • wOnderinG if they’LL eveR haPpen agaiN…
  • yeaH..if they’LL haPpen aGain…..wiTh HIM.
  • YOU and HIM.

my REFLECTION in RS 15..

October 4th, 2006 by dice-cied
We tread upon life everyday – our very own “College Life”.
As each sunshine turns to sunset, we commute to school, pass by different faces, exchange greetings, cram for tests, copy and compare each other’s assignments, giggle and steal glances at our “special someone”, gossip, sneak inside the elevator, stand in line for payments at the finance, study (or sleep) inside the library, ask for allowance and tuition fees, or let the night drift with piles of handouts, highlighters, columnar papers, pens, our ever-reliable calculator, and a cup of coffee or munchies at hand.
            In every moment of tiresome grueling, we seek God’s refuge. We eagerly beg for His assistance during major exams, pray for the success of a presentation, ask for protection during trips and outings, trust Him to win contests, and hope in Him to pass this program. All these, God never failed to sustain us. But during our times of comfort, bliss, glory and success, did we earnestly thank God the way we seek His refuge? Admit it, we only share an inch of our gratitude to God and spend the whole of our time having fun and celebrating with the rest of the gang.
There is nothing wrong with owing ourselves for something well-done but it is not right to neglect what we owe to God for what He has done for us to reach the peak. Though there might be times when he does not grant each of our very desires, we opt to know that only He knows what is best for us and when to give it. Oftentimes, we tend to go on our own way and end up in misery and regretting everything. Sometimes, we blame someone just to escape or cover up the feelings in which we are confused and stranded. And when no seems to be swimming with us in the same hurling sea, we go back to God. We look in different directions from afar in search for His hand but in vain, not realizing that He was behind us all the time, watching our every step. He calls for us in an audible whisper to take His hand and seek shelter in His arms. Everything in life has a reason and it takes time to open our eyes to clearly see in the view of a bird’s eye what these reasons are. We wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for Him. He is our past’s comforter, our very present help, and our future’s stronghold. He cries and feels our sorrow and agony in times of despair. He rejoices and hears our heart’s innocent laughter. He knows all our hidden desires. He is aware of our needs and sufferings. All we have to do is trust in Him. Trust. Listen. Obey. Life is full of amazing things. Beautiful sunsets. Cool winds. Wild flowers. Laughter. Friends. Love. Quiet moments. And of course, GOD.